Learning To Laugh It off...

You know that time old question..."wow, haha that SUCKS! Does stuff like that actually happen to people?" How many times have we asked this to our buddies about some ridiculous story in between our laughs? I'll tell you how many times we've all asked this question. ALOT! And you know what...I'll do you one better, I'll even answer the quesion for you! Yes. Yes they do happen. And they happen to ME! I stayed home sick today and for some reason I started thinking of all the things that have happend to me that I could have easily sold to a 17 magizine for the embarassing moments page that people like to look at to feel better about falling on their face in Spanish class that day. Well I thought I would go ahead and take a moment to say your welcome. Your welcome for taking one for the team and being "that girl" that everyone can look at and say...well. At least THAT didn't happen to me! Your also welcome for being the same very girl who doesn't start crying, at least in front of you, and making it all awkward. Who even lets you make fun of her for days to come and laughs along with you. Cause if theres one thing I've learned through countless times of saying the wrong thing, landing on your face with the whole football team running behind you on the track, and completly flashing people with your skirt....is that you basically have two options. Laugh, or cry. I'm sure the day will come when I finally do the one thing that no amount of laughter will fix, but until that day...I chose to laugh. So feel free to laugh with me!

My Doggies Nose

So today has been one of those mental over load days. Not so much in a bad way, I got a lot of good out of what I was hearing and feeling. However at some point today I think my mind subconsciously shut down with a kind of animal instinct of survival. I was sitting in my kitchen with one of those tricky blank stare on my face. You know, the kind you see people do and you just start waving cause you have no idea what the heck they're looking at. Well I was reppin one of those while my poor father was talking to the family about some of the things he got out of church today. I gave it my best effort to listen, but I ended up just staring at my doggies nose. I LOVE THAT NOSE!! It just has a mind of its own! I kept wondering, "is she TRYING to make it move, or does it just constantly twitch??" She kept sniffing the ground before she would lay her head down as if she was inspecting it, IT WAS SO CUTE! I was tranced and decided I would write about it. Life is so ironic. After a day of mental ups downs and some pretty major realizations...I choose to document my puppies nose. hahahaI guess it is the little things that matter most sometimes.

my seeeester slash....BFF!!

So I am embarassed I have yet to talk about this major person in my life yet, but better late than never right! Brianna Lynn Cross/Smith. She's been the rock in my life. Whether shes been the rock I've been stubbing my toe and and screaming at, the rock holding me down when the wind was blowing, or just the stable rock that I held onto as the currents were pushing me under water. She's my best friend and I owe so much to her. We definatley aren't the kind of sisters who have ever enjoyed hugging and telling eachother how beautiful our hair looks that day, but she knows me better than I know myself and I thank God every day for putting her in my life. :)

P.S. shout out to Bri for making my wonderful new profile!! hehe

Using Whats Left Better

"You can't make up time; you can only use whats left, better." -Oscar G. Darlington
Dear Oscar G. Darlington,
I don't really know who you are, or what exactly you did that made you famous enough for people to put quote marks around your profound words, but thank you! I love this quote! As of lately I've been finding myself doing more wishing than actual DOING. And you might not be surprised to hear that it's not really getting me anywhere! Why is this? Probably because I'm the only one who can change my thoughts, or turn them into actions! I've found that trying to control all the variables around me is tiring, and pointless. There's no point in trying to run in quicksand, I can barley run on regular ground! So instead of putting myself in dream situations and working up a sweat to stay in the same freaking place I've been for the past several months...I'm deciding to start running on ground where I can see myself passing objects! But here's the best part, thanks to my buddy Oscar, I have also come to the conclusion that it is no longer necessary for me to keep going back and looking in the quicksand for all the time that I've "wasted" . No. I may not be able to "make up time" but you can bet your mothers sweet apple pie I will use whats left better. :)

passion

In my ready set teach class we had a guest speaker talk to us about being a teacher. the way he was talking about the profession he chose was inspiring. even if becoming a teacher may seem as a laughable feild to you, or simply not worth the pay, the way he sopke with such passion is what made me, and even the air head blonde begind me sit on the edge of our seats. What i gathered from this mans speech to us about our futures and occupation choices was that no matter what your doing, who you are, or where you might be in you life, it is so important to have meaning behind what your doing. I don't ever want to reach that point that i wake up in the morning being able to guess exactly what i'm going to do that day and the soul purpose behind me doing said things is to pay the bills, or because its better than nothing. I want to get up having expectations of an expirence. Good or bad; just something to learn and grow from. I want passion to be in the front seat of my everyday life. I want what i do to be something that means something. I wont just "pay the bills"