laying a foundation today, to build on tomorrow

trials...there the memories that wake you up in the middle of the night, the fresh tears running down your cheeks, the parts of our lives that we end up denying to our self just because we can. We spend our days running from these unavoidable moments of weakness in our lives. How many times do we allow ourselves to take these crashing moments and let them beat us. How many times do we think to ourselves that this is simply too much, that there hasbeen some sort of mistake; there's no way this was suppose to happen to you. How many times do we think that this might be the end of what we know. That this for sure will be one of those moments that change us, take apart our hearts and put them back together in a different order. I never liked the kind of people who pretended like they had it all together, or that they understood everything that your going through, so I'm not going to be that girl. I'm not going to say that I have it all together, because I don't. Not even close. And I'm not going to say that I've had a ruff life. I look at the children in the hospital diagnosed with cancer, and don't have any real memories outside their hospital room, or the mother who lost her child, get up and face every day with a careful smile praying for a better day tomorrow. I've yet to experience much, and there's so much I don't know. But what I do know is that we are all part of something that is so much bigger than we can truly comprehend. There's not a tear that's shed with out our God knowing, and wishing he could tell you how great he thinks you are. So many times we forget to remember that these trials are for. There not meant to tare us down. We're meant to take these moments and learn from them. Let us take our weakness's and make them our strengths. Let us remember we're not in this alone. And most of all let us remember to have faith in ourselves, He has asked nothing of us we can not with stand. I thank God for the trials he's given me, and the people he's sent to help me get through them, but most importantly I thank him for the lesson's that I know he prepared for me to learn through each one. I'm laying a foundation today to build on tomorrow.

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Today has been such a gorgeous day!! I love the outside :) It's so ironic. When people think of the "great outdoors" they think about how simple it all seems, how peaceful it is. That's when the irony comes to play. Cause when you really take a closer look to God's amazing creation you realize the complexity of it all. Each ant that devours your melted Popsicle, each bird that sings as it passes, and each cloud that shields your eyes from the sun is so complex. They all have their own design and purpose, and if we were missing one of these elements we would be thrown off balance. I think I like it so much cause that's how life kinda works in general. Each small thing, each person, each smile you share is part of something much bigger. Sometimes its the quiet girl you pass on the way to math class, or the nervous looking boy who made your subway sandwich that we can learn the most from. Each person has something special to offer, something beautiful. Things are always more than they seem. It's just our job to find the beauty beneath it all.

ok so i am so excited that i now have a blog!! Firsty because I know nothing about computers and I actually figured out how to make one! And sencondly because i was just thinking to myself..."hey self, if i had a blog right now, i would have lots to say" and this is what i have to say today....



So today I am unfortunaltely feeling USED! Which is ironic cause i was just talking the other day about how much I admire my mother in so many ways, minus the fact she let's people walk all over her...but here I am...THE FREAKIN DOOR MAT! I wine all the time about how "he's" using me and I'm so done with it, but as soon as "he" talks to me I completely forget my resolve! Or about how whenever I'm talking to "her" the conversation doesn't drift from "her" life, but as soon as the conversation starts dying, I ask another random question about her life! WHY WHY WHY do I chase the things I want to run away from?! I'm so sick of myself! alright. This is it. I love doing things for other people and seeing them happy, but at some point i need to do something for myself. Today I'm going to make myself happy. So here's to making it official...

Dear World,

This day of February 20Th, 2011 I would like to cordially announce to all you fine people that i have picked myself up, dusted off your foot prints, and put myself INSIDE the house! Sara Cross is no longer a door mat! So if you would like to talk to me...knock, and if you brought me something pretty...I'll think about letting you in :)