Some of Life's Great Wonders...Just make me Wonder

I enjoy running. Sometimes I have to tell myself enjoy running mainly due to the fact that I couldn't stand how tight my pants had fit that day and the thought of running is more of what i enjoy, but either way; running, or what occasionally looks more like a fast past shuffle, is something I do on a regular basis. Today was more of a fast past shuffle kind of day, so I decided to find a place where the passing cars couldn't laugh at the pained expression on my face as I tried sucking in air. On days like these I find refuge in the local public middle track. On my way driving to this track I was attempting to find a song on my ipod to give me the adrenaline I knew I would need as soon as my feet hit the gravel, especially after the dinner I just partook of, little did I know, I was about to see something truly majestic and what turned to be into thought provoking. As I made my way down to the track slowly, anticipating the on coming stomach crap I looked up from my ipod and that's when I saw it. One of life's great wonders. The sky was draped in a kind of black silk that was slowly crawling across the atmosphere, a kind of deadly peaceful thing to see. Undeniably beautiful in any case, but slightly threatening. The threat I was feeling was probably due to the fact that I live in San Antonio and have almost forgotten the smell of rain sense the all consuming drought hit us. However, I continued to gaze up at the sky in wonder....as I wondered. My life sometimes feels like these weather patterns that Texas has adopted. At times I feel as if I'm going through a bit of a drought. Maybe it's with a certain friend that I'm missing, or a feeling I haven't been able to feel, or that feeling of pure anticipation to see him...Sometimes these things just aren't there. But then, just when I start to think this drought will never end, a sky like this shows up, with the promise of something beautiful, different, with the mystery of turning into slightly threatening, but non the less a cleansing from the sun and cracking dirt I've been getting use to.

Tell Them All I Know Now

"Tell them all i Know now, shout it from the roof tops..."

Have you ever noticed that after you go through an expirence, after you've been broken down to what the very core of you has been made of, you feel like you don't know ANYTHING anymore. That every thing that you thought you knew, has been shaken, and you start to wonder how complete of a person you are. Its not until you get to the point that you are no longer blind sighted from the hurt you were feeling that you start to understand what exactly happend, and then slowly your mind starts to comprehend why. Eventually we get to the point of being able to wrap our head around the fact that yes, it wasn't easy. But it was worth it...and it happend for a reason. This is where it happens though. This is how our radio becomes crowded with broken hearted love songs. This is where all of our sappy love movies we cry to on life time come from. And this my friends is where you find the inspiring facebook status's, and the I think I'm starting to understand it blog post. Because as soon as you get through whatever it is thats causing your sleepless nights and teary pillow cases, all you want to do is "shout it from the roof tops" and tell all those who feel incomplete, or heart broken in some way, that "what they hoped would be impossible" has happend. More importantly however....it will end, and we get to learn from it. Then we get to share all we know, even if just to ourselves.