in the words of a women wiser than i..."WHAT THE DOY!?"

have you ever had those moments where you wouldn't necessarily say that things were good, but they defiantly weren't bad? or your sitting in your car and you see a bag floating across the highway and for no good reason you start crazy laughing at it? or your stomach is rumbling but you're still saying your not hungry just cause you don't know what you want to eat? and the classic sitting at home thinking, I've done this the past two nights....i need to get out....only you cant figure out if you actually want to leave the house and attempt being social? these are the moments where you just look at your reflection and say.... "WHAT THE DOY?!?" a phrase I've picked up from one of my favorite people in this whole freaking world!

new chapter...nah, new book

you always hear about how sometimes you just need to start a new chapter in your life. when things just get to that point where you can no longer handle the chapter your in. well what no one ever tells you what to do when you've already turned the chapters. over and over and over. but some how every time you try and re-write the chapter the same crap comes back, just with different words. so what do you do then? i think sometimes we just need to open a new book. start over, pick a new cover, new title, and new characters. that's what i want. only thing is....i don't know how to start it. i don't want to fill this new book with silly distractions, i want it to mean something. i want people to see my book and want to read it, to be able to take a chapter from this new grand book and have it mean something to them, because it meant something to me. i want a new book.

waking up

life isn't a dream. sometimes it'll feel like that though. sometimes i feel like I'm just sleep walking, and my life is a bit of a dream. too good to be true. the older i get however i realize life can't always be this way. every now and then we go through times of pure dreaming, but for every good dream, there's the alarm clock that follows. as unwelcoming as that buzz in our ear can be, we shouldn't be bitter the dream is over. instead we should appreciate that it happened. chasing after a dream is like trying to catch your shadow. pointless and tiring. we have to wait for the times we're placed right under the sun and we're standing on our shadow. we have to wait for the nights where we're blessed with a dream. and then let it engulf us.